Poison

let it go

so you can once again

sleep easy

let it go

so the pain no longer lingers

deep

within your tears

let it go

so you don’t have to

hide

from the world

let it go

to make way for the angels

waiting patiently 

for your love

let it go

and find the freedom

that is hiding

in your breath

let it go 

and be alive

like you used to

let it go

for the sake of my

fragile

broken

soul

Lost

lost

like so many

great figures

that have

waded through

the storms

far before

my time

yet

i see no

likeness

between me

and those

that have also

wandered

my storms await

yet i find

no will

no light

to follow

to fight

to make

stories of

my own

i have no

direction

no idea

no plan

i cry

at the thought

of being naked

and alone

exposed

to a world

that is so

unforgiving

full

of judgemental

watchful eyes

never resting

always looking

analysing every

move

but my dear

i am

simply so

lost

i do not

even remember

what lost is

Time

as the time passes

and the nights

expand

on and on

endless

quiet

like the stars

and the galaxies

up in space

shining

like my eyes do

with the tears

that only wish to fall

down

each cheek

waiting to greet the other

at my lips

as i wish

we could do

alone

after all this time

quietly hoping

to hear just

3 words

'i miss you'

Streams

thoughts never stop

they pound in my head

again

and again

and

again

they remind me

of what i was

what i am

and what i cannot figure out

im lost

floating

like a leaf

down a stream

alone

and cold

from the tears

that roll

like the rain

down a lifeless statue

emotion bursting

from every crack

every break

a wasted ruin

laying trapped

and

forgotten

however i cannot help

but wonder

if you too

are looking up

at the same

sky

Cracks

the cracks

around my eyes show

where laughter

once lingered

where it thrived

where it blossomed

like the hunger

for your touch

your kiss

your smile

nothing more

than a desire

simple

strong

hopeful

such as i

once was

Flaws

today i looked in the mirror

i saw a face

filled with flaws

beyond counting

on one hand

the more i saw

the more i became consumed

by the desire for perfection

to look like those other girls

the pretty girls

so i could

be perfect too

then i realised

i would never be those other girls

the pretty girls

who seem to have it all

when in reality

they have the same as me

a face

filled with their own flaws

beyond counting

on one hand

striving for perfection

in a world where perfection

does not exist

Archives

my dear i can only dream

of how beautiful it would be

to stay

in your thoughts

when the days are dark

and my thoughts are darker

alas

time slips away

memories fade

like faces in the rain

but yours remains

like a crystal

deep within the archives

for you are good

and i am not

for you are strong

and i am not

for you are lovely

and i am not

The Path

loneliness is a path

coated with the webs of times long gone

and memories you wished you could forget

the burdens of a former self

over flowing with regret

                  

wishing for change

wishing to be someone different

empty footsteps replace the person you lost

long ago

                  

there is a light

but the will to keep going does not come

it is broken, destroyed, frayed

like the hope of a new beginning

defeated and gone

                  

"not all those who wander are lost"

but that is not true

we are all lost

we are all looking for something to save us

we are all ghosts

wandering our own path

Loathing

it seeps in

venom turning to ice in your veins

its not fear

its not love

it consumes you

locks you in

a prison

your own personal hell

traps you

suffocates you

until you know nothing else

violent

agressive

loathing

it burns through every fibre

engulfs you

drowns you

but you're still breathing

sinking further and further

into the never ending depths

of the river

Isolation

eventually you give up

you stop trying

you stop caring

everything is just a blur

a mess

nothing makes sense

people let you down

its the only thing you know

the only thing you're sure of

you push people away

you become isolated

nothing motivates you

nothing excites you

its just a meaningless existence

filled with disappointment

emptiness

nothing

and then you're gone

you vanish

as if you never mattered at all